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Full Time Mom, Wife, Work, Life - Mom to three children (adults), two are college graduates and now own their own homes, and the youngest is in college in NC; wife to Thomas; Work - one full time and multiple part time jobs; Life - whatever you can throw at me....

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Overcome with emotion

Right now, there are just  too many things swirling through my brain to make a lot of sense.

The whole Newtown "thing" is just so fresh and so raw and so emotional here ......literally only 15 minutes away.  I know people who went to school there, I know police officers who are patrolling there, I know Knights of Columbus volunteers who are working there, I know people in my building who are doing so much for them, I know of counselors who have to counsel the children....it is just still so uncomprehensible.

Prayers just don't seem enough, but I'm at a loss as to what to do?  Money seems so impersonal.  I don't know.......I just don't know.

My husband's police dept. is sending squads of men there to help with the freaking media and funerals.....It is so senseless.  I am still trying to pray, but I am having a hard time.  My brother had one of the "private funerals" at his church - it was a secret (imagine trying to keep a secret from the freaking media) and he had to stand guard so the freaking Westboro Baptist church didn't come....how do you deal with that on an emotional level......I am so overwhelmed.....I don't think I am alone.  I am not alone.  I know there are so many people out there having such a hard time with this and they know no one who was actually killed.  Thank GOD!

Faith is sometimes all we have.    I thank GOD that I have my faith!  

Just a lot of random thoughts.....My next blog will be so much better......but for tonight....My prayers are for the James Mattioli family.    This little boy looks just like my Dominic and like my Brody (the trip).   I can't get him out of head and the tears just don't stop.  Prayers......even if you aren't a religious person....say a prayer or an ode or whatever you believe.....Just stop and think.

Matthew 19:14 

But Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of heaven.”


Yvette Niesel said...

Maria, there are no words. God bless the little children and God bless each and every one of us.

Maria said...

Thank you, Yvette!

The 4 Bushel Farmgal said...

Maria, I understand and agree with you completely. It's left us so raw and open. Just catching a photo on the news makes me cry again. We had our minute of silence at work and no one was without tears for those lovely children and teachers. God bless them!